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[vernard]

I found out last week that my ex-wife is engaged to be married.

It actualy hit me pretty hard and I was quite disturbed.

I'm better now. Well, getting better at least.

Only mortal beings can believe in forever....

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[bheansidhe.livejournal.com]

I was talking... ranting, really... to sibylla recently, and the topic was love. Specifically, why love had to have a shelf life; how I could feel almost nothing for someone whom, I am quite sure, I loved truly and deeply and sincerely and all that. "How can I ever trust love again? How can love be real if it's.... finite?" I wailed.

To which she snapped back, "Life is finite. That doesn't make it any less real."

Wow. That rocked me the fuck back on my heels. Hoping it helps.

[vernard.livejournal.com]

I guess that is actually part of my problem. I am quite certain that love is infinite. Which is why I have some issues with how one has to move on.

What does move on mean when you say that you love someone forever? Its different for evernone else. I have to find a way to love someone else while not desecrating the existing love for someone else that will never return that love.

Its a strange thing. And its a fine line that I walk. but so far I've managed to do it. Only time will tell if I can keep it up for long :-)

[bheansidhe.livejournal.com]

Ooooookay.

1. Shall we get together and have lunch?

2. Let's get together and have lunch.

3. I don't know that it's different for anyone, really.

4. You have to find a way to love someone else without also needing to be up close and personal in their life. To love, but to stand away and not get involved when their actions hurt you. To love, but also to protect yourself from the fallout of that love. It's not the *love* that's the problem, it's the *attachment.* The two are not the same, IMHO.

5. Have lunch with me, damnit.

[vernard.livejournal.com]

*chuckle*

ok, lunch it is. I've got you phone number. I'll give you a call and we'll do the lunch thing :-)